Vague Light

Mindless fatigue - my soul endlessly aching
Waiting for deadly release an empty disease
Give up control in defeat
I’ve been here for weeks, maybe years, trapped in my mind’s prison
Nothing to eat I grow weak
How have I not seen, answers stray far from delusion
Feeling the hate swell in meI go deeper in to thrive under a weeping sky
The weight of my own conscience bends me beyond repairIf I seek the truth in light - will all of my torment die?
Will warmth return into my body?
Give back to me what’s mine
Under the dirt, eternally waiting
Determine the fate that I will be taking
Bound to return, among all the worms
If I don’t find the reason, beyond my own demonsForming an apology, scratching the words out
That I couldn’t bear to see, written out in blood
I will never come to be, my selfish vision
Happiness evading me, between the cracksI’ll slip away
I can’t relate to youIf I seek the truth in light - will all of my torment die?
Will warmth return into my body?
Give back to me what’s mine
Under the dirt, eternally waiting
Determine the fate that I will be taking
Bound to return, among all the worms
If I don’t find the reason, beyond my own demonsMy corrupt mind, morals decayed
A darkness within myself, cast on humanity
But now, ends this night with clarity
Love found in oneself, constructs the wayNow comes the time to cut loose the ties that bind to misery
These memories that you cling to can drag you down into your grave
Time will erase - faith lost to a tortured soul, will be replaced