Sleeping With The Enemy

I'm so sick of our chemistry and how you make me bleed
I'm dry, I'm drowning
I'm lost, I'm findingI can lie my way through anything and I can cry without feeling
I'm nervous and numb, filtered and dumb
But I can't really say that I don't crave it that way
I don't know what I do it for
(But I can't have you go without letting you know)I'm a liar, a fake
Everything that I hate
I wish I could say: I'm sorry, I'm sorryBaby, I've tried to change, but these are my ways
You need to know, you're sleeping with the enemyI'm so sick of our energy
With you I'm not really me
I'm cold, I'm burning
I'm love, I'm hatingI have no remorse
We have run our course
I thought you'd be the one to save me
I thought you'd be the one to break me
I can't have you go without letting you knowI'm a liar, a fake
Everything that I hate
I wish I could say: I'm sorry, I'm sorryBaby, I've tried to change
But these are my ways
You need to know, you're sleeping with the enemyIt's too late, too late to see
That the one that needs fixing isn't you, it's meI broke down your reality
So the one that always hurts is you and not me
I took advantage of your trust in me
You only saw what I wanted you to see
(I can't have you go) without letting you knowI'm a liar, a fake
Everything that I hate
I wish I could say: I'm sorry, I'm sorryBaby, I've tried to change
But these are my ways
You need to know, you're sleeping with the enemy