Alone with the cross

Within the halls of the monastery
I walk the corridors in silence
A vow of abstinence and piety I made
To attain peace and holy guidanceAll earthly pleasures I’ve forsworn
But when I'm desperate and forlornI take the crucifix down from my chamber wall
Longing to feel the Lord inside of me
The tempting body of Christ puts me at a loss
My gut it hurts whenever I am
Alone with the crossHis wooden symbol bringing warmth and light
To where the Sun is never shining
Makes me tremble with unholy ecstasy
Oh, God, thy mercy I confide inFor this I can never atone
Heavenly father please condoneI take the crucifix down from my chamber wall
Longing to feel the Lord inside of me
The tempting body of Christ puts me at a loss
My gut it hurts whenever I am
Alone with the crossDefiled and broken, His image in my hands
Damned is my godforsaken soul
My oath no longer worth a toss
I weep in shame and bitter loss
Alone with my cross