When everything feels empty
I rely on empty touch
To ignore the days
That I hate myself and I miss you too much
And everyone feels cold
When they lack something familiar
There was light trapped where the Sun was
This is harder than I thought
I will always look for you in the quiet empty nothing
Where you were convinced
There was only dark and the sharpest objects
I saw your coat I saw it like a martyr sees its body
I saw your coat like the shadow
Of a ghost that wouldn't leave here
I saw your coat hanging in surrender like a white flag
I saw your coat and I hate this
This is harder than I thought
